Little Girl Gone

The winter wind blows against my face
The tear weeps, it leaves no trace
My heart expands when I see you gone
It is for you that I will ever mourn

That little girl I once used to be
The quiet girl that was me
Has disappeared, and I cry a tear
Forever in my heart; forever near

I look at photos now many years on
I see the look that is now gone
The tears of sorrow, downward gaze
The darkened avenues; the grey haze

For now I fit another mould
I see rainbows and pots of gold
I look up and see a bright blue sky
I see happiness standing by

The time for joy is here at last
It is here, it comes so fast
The smile of love shows its face
A greatness now in sorrows place.

What love does

If only I could tell you; what you mean to me
Then I would not explain; for you could truly see
My life was in turmoil, full of pain and fear
Then you came flying in; just to be so near

My pain was unbelievable, the light was nearly gone
The soul was tormented, dark and dreadfully worn
My thoughts were overflowing; crying waterfalls of tears
But you were there beside me; releasing all my fears

If only I could tell you; then you would know for sure
Fear was a barrier; I wanted to give you more
Experience had told me; that life was hard indeed
That there was evil everywhere; it had sown its dire seed

My heart forever vigilant, terror so close to me
The fear was raging; unable to let me be
You were there encouraging; being on my side
I did not want to fear no more; I did not want to hide

If only I could tell you; to let you glimpse a bit
Of the fear that touched me;  the candle that you lit
Burning deep inside me; the anger was there to see
I was unable to face the fear; without you there with me

Carefully I moved forward; it took quite a while
It was your encouragement; your jokes that made me smile
You held my hand so tightly, your hugs so very close
Your love internally needed; for the pain that hurt the most


Now years later, after the day that we met
I remember the pain; the pain I will not forget
With you by my side, I can be forever free
Thank you from my heart, thank you from me.

A Child at the Beach

As she runs along the beach
Her thoughts hurt; out of reach
Her feet dig into the soft sand
She runs; she hides; her life planned

She looks out on the distant sea
Her thoughts lost; where is me?
Why do I have to live this life
The pain cuts like a knife

The buildings stand resolute
Above the beach; their silence mute
The waves crash on the shore below
Her thoughts whirl; everything slow

What would happen; she thought inside
If I just ran to the waves to hide;
If I just let them take me in
If I just let them hide my sin

What would it be like to step away
From this life that held her at bay
To stop the pain and anguish beneath
To belay the misery; internal grief

She continues to run, full speed ahead
Just one step to the right; she's dead
The waves would take her; problems gone
She would not feel the guilt; it is the norm

Why you may ask is she here
Running the beach; terror near
Wanting to end it; wanting to hide
Wanting to take relief in suicide?

Her father molested her for many years
Her father brought forward many tears
Fear was beyond mention; ever there
Back in the car; she knew no care

For she would have to continue on
Hiding, dreading; happiness gone
She would have to deal with her dad
Touching; taunting; eternally sad

For now years on the pain is still there
But now she has found others that truly care
She remembers back; the moment gone
She remembers of this time; forlorn

For if she had taken her life
She would not be a loving wife
Her kids would not be now and here
Others would live with this frightening fear

There would be no tears tonight
She would be forgotten; forever in fright
No one would know what lay beneath
The fear; the awful pain of grief

This poem would not be read to
Spreading the message of grief to you
She would be a tombstone covered in moss
Laying beneath a large wooden cross

Her life fulfilled now; many years on
The pain still there, but the horror gone
She worked through what it all meant
And her father now; reported, 100 percent

What love does

If only I could tell you; what you mean to me
then I would not explain; for you could truly see
My life was in turmoil, full of pain and fear
then you came flying in; just to be so near

My pain was unbelievable, the light was nearly gone
The soul was tormented, dark and dreadfully worn
My thoughts were overflowing; crying waterfalls of tears
 But you were there beside me; releasing all my fears

If only I could tell you; then you would know for sure
Fear was a barrier; I wanted to give you more
Experience had told me; that life was hard indeed
That there was evil everywhere; it had sown its dire seed

 My heart forever vigilant, terror so close to me
The fear was raging; unable to let me be
You were there encouraging; being on my side
I did not want to fear no more; I did not want to hide

If only I could tell you; to let you glimpse a bit
Of the fear that touched me;  the candle that you lit
Burning deep inside me; the anger was there to see
I was unable to face the fear; without you there with me

Carefully I moved forward; It took quite a while
It was your encouragement; your jokes that made me smile
You held my hand so tightly, your hugs so very close
Your love internally needed; for the pain that hurt the most

Now years later, after the day that we met

I remember the pain; the pain I will not forget

With you by my side, I can be forever free

Thank you from my heart, thank you from me